Thursday, October 25, 2007

frustration (personal)

So on the same day as Max's surgery (great timing, right?), we got the latest news on the divorce appeal. Improvement but nowhere near what we need. It was a bit shocking to say the least...and I was already an emotional basketcase from worrying about Maxwell.

This whole thing is beyond frustrating. I cannot even begin to describe how absolutely bizarre it is. It would be different if I felt I caused any of this or could have changed something...but it feels like something happened out of my control (the divorce, his actions), and now I continually am being punished for it. Life goes on indeed...things happen. It could be a lot, a lot, a lot worse...BUT it just doesn't seem right that it has to be this difficult. Yes I know that is a little "whiney," I admit that...but seriously, isn't it just frustrating when "good" simply doesn't prevail? It sure would be an easier world! :)

I want to just put this all behind us, but at the same time I have to think of our finances and the future.

So anyway, my lawyer and I have been discussing our next step. I know what needs to be done but everything costs money...and I sure would rather have that money for Maxwell and our expenses. Lawyer fees are simply no fun!

Then yesterday, I learned that the ex was actually going to appeal too. He thinks he is paying too much money. What? Yep. So there we are. It's all pretty amazing.

We'll get through, I know we will. But I am just really frustrated this morning about it all.

9 comments:

Miss N Cedie said...

Bless your heart- as if you don't have enough on your plate :-(

Love Jenn

Crystal M. said...

Hugs to you Amy!! I wish I could be there to hold your hand durning all the crap he puts you through.
hugs,
Crystal and Eva

Shannon said...

Amy,
I am thinking of you and Sweet Max. I just can't believe all of this. Truly heartbreaking. This isn't the fun side of life is it? Again, the valleys in the rollercoaster. Thank God Max has you. You're a very strong woman and I hope you know we are all here when you just want to break....and lose it.
Shannon in Austin

Unknown said...

Good does prevail...maybe not right now, but in the end it does. And someone will have to answer to a higher power some day..it will sure be interesting what answers he comes up with won't it?
You hang in there...we are all rooting for you..If I had a million bucks I'd gladly give you what you need! (If a million would even be enough!)...in the meantime, I can offer up prayers and hugs....
Jaye

Sara Blair said...

I'm so, so sorry...I'm here if you need to vent. I get so frustrated for you...i just want to scream at someone...THIS IS NOT FAIR!!! He's such an ass...

-Sara

Leslie, Arlin and Katie Kauffman said...

Hugs and prayers to you and Max, Amy. I hope this all works out to your advantage in the end, but it sure doesn't sound like the system is on your side--which is totally NOT fair! I can't believe your ex doesn't see how he is shortchanging his own son. But it sounds like he doesn't have the heart to ever realize what he's missing. :-(

Hang in there!
Leslie & Katie

Unknown said...

We're here to listen. Vent all that you need to. We don't get tired of listening. In fact, for those of us who have never had to go through the court system, it shows us how incredibly unfair it CAN be. Hang in there (as if you haven't been told that time and time again). I'm sure God has great things in store for you and Max!

Unknown said...

Amy,
If anyone could handle everything you are going through its you. You have an amazing gutt instinct that has pointed you in the right direction for quite some time. When you listen to your gutt, you get things done. I don't think we could even count the times that you have done this and succeeded. Trust that inner strength. And ofcourse you know how many of us are right there behind you.
Take care-
Ruthie

Pearl said...

Good grief! As if you need that additional worry on your plate. Praying on this end for you, that justice will prevail in the end!!!